At the entrance

danced a number 
of deep purple 
poppy flowers,


Clock 
     ticking-
rain 
     dripping-

my wife tossing, 
and turning 
in a creaking
blanketed bed 

She is disturbed that I am not there,
that I withhold my warmth

I cannot sleep,
darkness will not 
embrace me.

Morpheus 
let me be,
send no more wing'd
liars through that
gate of ivory.

clock 
     ticking-
rain
     dripping-

each
dull 
rhythmic
drip-tick
seems as 
if something 
is tapping 
on the 
ceiling 
of my 
skull.

something is tapping 
to escape its cage,

something is longing for
a voice of its own, 

something I have neglected
for far too long,

Tick
     drip
Tick
     drip


Tick?


Surfacing From Her Subterranean Home

Persephone,
The Maiden,
    re-emerges with
eyes as wide as the
sky umbrella overhead


to be away
from that winter


to have the earth burst beneath my feet
like a handful of pomegranate seeds


to distance myself from the despair
I felt at her disappearance.


The golden orb,
the laughing sun,
is nearly as large
as a little fingertip
held up at arm's length.


cyclic and circadian disorder
the lessened amount of light
in winter weighed
heavily upon me


Persephone,
The Maiden,
     re-emerges with
my rhythm and sanity.


can they see the threads fraying?

can they feel this body dying
all around them?
i can


sometimes this is all
i can feel
the loss of another day another
second slipping
its hand around my throat


lines forming-
cycles circles- 
clocks 
ticking.
oblivious
of the meaning


                        birth
               school       work
           death                  birth
                school       work
                       death


friends & family
negation


congregation
as we awaken &
question:


entropy
just above my eyes
atrophying compassion
apathy as an offering


god
i can see it 
fading
i focus on it 
closing


i beg the bleak question 
of mortality
i search the books
i read to my children


which so brilliantly
brought it to my attention
in the sheer enjoyment


& endless 
carefree abandon
written on their 
fresh faces


the secret is there
in simple amazement


Do we stop playing when we grow old,  
or only grow old when we stop playing?



what was left...


I stood in what once was an old wood
next to what was left of an old home

Southern Red Oak dead
and broken 
into a figure 8 almost

silent towering 
Sweetgum
splintered & tossed about

Broken fingers, 
and back 
of the world
twisted around

family photographs 
strewn along 
the path of destruction

What method determined
which ones were chosen?

“That's a sound my son
will never forget,” he said .
Crawling in the mud
beneath the old oaks
and massive pines

lying prostrate 
bowing before
the power of the storm

Their trunks trembling
with every roar of thunder

the rain incessant
and appearing crystallized
frozen in time and sky

with every violent
white-hot flash
of electricity 

His many  
dogs baying,
howling,
barking

knowing instinctively
that this is a primordial
force,

this is not a force
made by God-

this is God itself
if God exists.

He said, “They say thank God,
well I myself don’t have too much to say to him.”
He looked around at
his ruined
personal
possessions

Wiped his eyes,
lifted his chainsaw
to start again.